Am I Slave

I filled out all the check list and listed all my limits. W/we talked over Safe words and
everything. W/we spent time together, learning each other, and discovering concealed desires.

I desire to please so badly that I get in a hurry. (not a good thing). After a few weeks of talking, I beg for His collar, I'm in His home and I am now His slave. I am His property now to do with as He pleases. All the check list, limits, and Safe words just got tossed in the trash. I have no rights...i am his slave. He can respect them, but He does not have to now or ten years from now.

That did not happen, but it came very close. He is a good Man, and most likely would have respected my limits, but by becoming His slave He did not have to. At anytime, if He chose that He wanted something that was a limit for me, He had the right to demand it and I had no right to say no. As I look inside myself and ask if this is something I can live with, I see how dangerous getting in a hurry can be. My limits may change as I learn and as trust grows with the Dominant I choose, but I need the right to say if they change or not. I hope there comes a time where the Dominant I choose knows me so well that a Safe word is not used, but I will always have a Safe word.

I think there comes a time in every ones life that they take the steps to do what makes them feel Safe. Rights, limits. Safe words are what I need to feel Safe within the life style. That does not mean I am not a good sub but it does mean I am not a slave.

If you are thinking of becoming slave, it is best that you think really hard before deciding.Take your hardest limit, the one you think you will never do and picture yourself doing that. I am not saying it will happen but as a slave it can happen and you have no right to say no. Being a slave is not something to rush into or decide without lots of thought.

In closing I would like to say to the ones that are slave or will choose to be slave you have all my respect. Finding that much trust inside yourself is a rare thing.

I am not and will never be a slave.